Trust Your Instincts Girls!

No matter what they tell you - "you're over-reacting", "you're acting crazy", "Everything is fine", "there is nothing going on" - TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!!!

He doesn't look at you quite the same way.

He's a little more distant.

He doesn't tell you he loves you often as he used to.

He no longer touches you for no reason.

He no longer holds your hand when you go out.

He no longer spends as much time with you as he used to.

He seems to be going out a bit more than normal.

If you THINK there is something wrong - chances are there IS!

Trust yourself. Womens intuition is REAL! Don't let anyone tell you anything different!

You can feel it in the pit of your stomach, bubbling up to your brain. Your mind races, your heart throbs, and you KNOW - you know... you don't THINK - you know.

You need to trust this. This is real, and you are right!

My husband was acting "strange" for about 2 months. I asked him over and over what was going on - nothing. You're acting strange - no I'm not. Something is happening - no it's not. You are being different - nope, I'm exactly the same as I always was.

You know what? I was right. My instinct - starting at the pit of my stomach and bubbling up to my brain - was right. Dead - on! Soon - I will be separated. I will be a statistic. I still cannot tell you why. I still cannot think of a reason, a fight so bad, something that cannot be worked out.

Crazy Train To Single Town!!!!

On Friday, August 20th, 2010 - exactly 1 month and 1 day before our 1 year anniversary, my husband informed me he no longer wished to be married. We have been together for 5.5 years, and just now he realized I am not the one for him.

It's all very confusing and all kind of tangled and intertwined in my head.

He has no real reason - there are no crazy out of control fights, there is no cheating or illicit affairs. We get along great. We still love each other. We are each others best friends. We have similar personalities. We just weren't meant to be married. hmmm....

So... that's where I am. On the crazy train to single-town. Unsure why I'm on the train, but thankfully, I will be so busy getting our home ready to sell - I won't even have time to worry about it.

It's the getting into my new apartment - alone - and being forced to sit and wonder that I worry about. Worry about the future I will no longer have - the family we will no longer have.

So the last few days I have been informing people what has happened, which I think - has to be one of the hardest parts. The wound is still gaping open and gushing blood - and you have to talk about it - which I do not want to do. It makes it more real to say it outloud somehow.

You start with family and friends, and move onto co-workers. No matter who you tell - the women all respond the same way. THAT ASSHOLE! You can see the wounds from their past flair up in their eyes. No matter what happened - no matter who's fault it is, no matter how it went down, HE is the asshole, they are on YOUR side, they will give you their left arm if you need it, you take ANYTHING you need, you take all the time you want, you call me at any hour - day or night, and I am there for you. Rage in their eyes, nostrils flairing, all their ex heart breaks running through their head - they are there for you. No questions asked. That is also the one good thing about being a woman in a break up. Men rarely get the support, sympathy, and pure nasty man bashing that women get.

An Open Letter To...

Dear Fellow Bus Passengers,

You know what? It's 36 degrees Celsius today, that's 96.8 Fahrenheit. I am dressed completely in black, I was just at a funeral and want to get home. I had to walk 30 minutes, in all black, in the heat, to get to the bus stop - I just missed the bus, and because we are in the boondocks, this bus only comes once ever 45 minutes. So I have now been sitting in the heat, in all black, with my purse and a bag of groceries for 45 minutes. I get on the un-air-conditioned bus - finally - for my 35 minute trip back into town, just so I can transfer buses for another 30 minute bus ride home. I'm sweating my ass off, I'm grumpy, I'm hot, and my bag of groceries is not light. The bus isn't full, but there are are large number of you sitting on the OUTSIDE seat - so noone can sit with you. The people who are nice enough to sit on the inside seat all have people sitting with them. Now, normally, I would just stand next to one of you and say excuse me while rolling my eyes to get you to move over. But at this point, I'm afraid I'm going to lose my sh*t on someone, so I just stand there quietly. At this point, an elderly lady asks me if I want her seat because my bag looks heavy. I thank her very much but say no - she needs to sit down - while doing this I look at all the 15 year old boys not sharing their seats - nothing.

You know what people? Have a little consideration. If you don't want to sit with people, stand the f*ck up and let TWO people sit in your spot. If you're tired and need to sit - move the f*ck over and suffer the bus ride with someone sitting next to you. It's f*cking hot, I'm tired, I'm holding stuff so I can't hold onto the rail and we are on a moving bus, it's a long ride - MOVE THE F*CK OVER!!! Even if I am the ONLY person on the bus - I ALWAYS sit against the wall and put my bag on my lap so people can sit with me. Get with the program people!

Man Crush

As a follow up to my Girl Crush list - here is my Man Crush List...

1. Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Who knew the little kid from 3rd Rock from the Sun would grow up to be so hot?

2. George Stroumboulopoulos

George Stroumboulopoulos. I don't know if people outside of Canada knows who he is - but HERE he is at work - so hot! Funny, witty, smart - yum!

3. Johnny Depp

Johnny Depp - so freakin sexy! I think he is on EVERYONE'S list. Male and female - although the males would NEVER admit it.

4. Michael Buble

Michael Buble. I mean come on. What is not to love? Sexy voice, sexy songs - sexy. Really... who could deny that?

5. Bear Grylls

Bear Grylls, ok, this guy totally grosses me out. The sh*t he eats, and some of the weird stuff he does. Disgusting. But he's just so manly and hot!

Who are your man crushes?

Girl Crushes...

Girl Crushes - all girls have them, all girls are open about them, and all girls are happy to share them with whomever will listen!

Men on the other hand - men do not have man crushes. I personally think they do - but they would NEVER admit it. You know why? Because if they admit that a man is even categorized as "not ugly" in their mind - they are gay. Can you imagine a bunch of dudes sitting around, drinking tea and talking about their man crush? I don't think so!

So, without further ado - in NO particular order ... My Girl Crushes - Laminated List!!!

1. Natalie Portman:

Natalie Portman is drop dead gorgeous, smart (attended Harvard), well spoken, professional, and non slutty. She doesn't seem like the type of girl that needs to swing in and out of rehab every couple months, and I have never seen any gossip about her slutting it up at the bar. I absolutely love her.

2. Nicole Richie

Nicole Richie has an amazing sense of style and has an appearance of calmness about her. Sometimes when I watch The Simple Life I find her a bit annoying, but in pictures (not speaking) she is lovely.

3. Mary Louise Parker

Mary Louise Parker seems witty and funny. I totally fell in love with her in Weeds with her dry sense of humour and witty comebacks.

4. Maggie Gyllenhaal

Maggie Gyllenhaal is so adorable! She seems quirky and funny and doesn't give a sh*t what people think of her.

5. Gwyneth Paltrow

Gwyneth Paltrow gets a bad rap. People make fun of her GOOP newsletter and think she's a snob. I think she is gorgeous, seems very funny and witty in interviews, and has a calmness about her. But you know what? If she wants to be a snob, more power to her. Lovely.

6. Christina Ricci

Christina Ricci is another one of those quirky funny girls. She is cute and can be super casual or super dressed up. Love her.

7. Audrey Tautou

Audrey Tautou is so adorable! Perfect porcelain skin, huge eyes with all other features tiny. Again quirky and cute! And that adorable accent - totally love her.

8. Anne Hathaway

Anne Hathaway seems like one of those girls who is drop dead gorgeous, but doesn't really know it. She's kind of dorky and awkward, but could not be more beautiful. And she totally laughed off and joked about her little scandal - total babe.

9. Marion Cotillard

Marion Cotillard - also drop dead gorgeous, lovely accent, and funny - as seen HERE. How can you not love her? She's a fabulous actress and so beautiful!

10. Zooey Deschanel

Zooey Deschanel is yet another one of those quirky cute girls. I think every girl in the universe has a girl crush on her. She is beautiful, quirky, funny, adorable, and still a bit geeky. What else could you ask for!

Well, that is my list? Who's on your list?

What Are We Becoming?

What is going on?

Why are you afraid to touch the soap dispenser in your own home? Yah, the pump of the soap dispenser probably does have a lot of germs on it, but you know what? You wash your hands AFTER you touch the dispenser! You don't touch the dispenser then put your hands in your mouth right? You wash the germs from the dispenser off your hands...

Hand towel dispenser? That can't be good for the environment can it? That seems like an awful lot of waste. And again, in your own home? Chances are if someone in your house is sick, you are gonna get sick - unless your IMMUNE SYSTEM protects you (that's what its for). You hug and kiss your family - you touch them a lot when they are sick checking for fevers or rubbing away the chills. You are also breathing the same air they are - germs go out of them and into you.

I work in a research office with lots of doctors and patients. People come in sick, and yes, when they do, when I give them forms to fill out and they give them back - I put a little pump of Purell on or wash my hands. I don't do this with every single patient - I only do it when they are visibly sick.

I also give myself a little pump of Purell before entering the hospital - which I also visit daily. It is not to protect me from everyone else - it is to protect the sick people with weak immune systems from germs I may not know I'm carrying.

You want to know what else? I take the bus. I touch the bus seats, I touch the handles, the doors, the poles. Then I get off the bus, buy my coffee and press the lid on where I put my mouth with my dirty hands. And you know what? I rarely get sick. You know why? Because I HAVE AN IMMUNE SYSTEM. That is what my immune system is for! An immune system is like a muscle. If you don't let it fight off some common colds once in a while - it gets weak. And then you DO get sick - and that, my friends, is how "super bugs" are born. Flex your immune system muscles people - it will do you some good!

Falsies? Falsies!

So, I bought the new Maybeline Falsies Mascara, and this is my review...

Yes, it's THAT BAD! I hate it. I really do! I read some pretty good reviews on it, so I HAD to try it. I went out. I bought some. I brought it home. The next day I was getting ready for work and BAM! Tammy Faye Baker eyes!

You see it comes with this curved brush that should just fit perfectly on your lashes - and it does. It clumps all your lovely lashes into into about three, big, fat clumps. Horrible. So I re-googled it and found some bad reviews. I learned that if you wipe off the brush a bit, and use the applicator the wrong way, and just use the tip it will go on a bit better - less clumpy. This is true - but who has the time? Also, this way, it is NOT build-able. Just one small coat and let it go - otherwise you'll clump. Also, oddly, when it clumps - it makes you lashes stick straight out in front. It's so bad. So bad.

What mascara do you all use? I'm in need of a new good one!

*I did not get these products for free. I am not affiliated with the company in any way. I am not being paid by the company. This is my honest opinion, not a paid review* ~ obviously...

Go Big or Go Home!

**WARNING**

This is a bit of a grisly post

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Oh Canada... Canada Canada Canada...

Canada, is generally known as a peaceful country. It's a fact that our evening news cast rarely has talk of deaths unless they were accidental. We rarely hear the word gruesome or murder.

We have some sponsors that come from the US that are so fascinated by our news casts - no drive by shootings, no murders, they were literally talking about funny dog tricks! Sometimes they ask me - I want to walk around the inner harbour tonight after work (around 6pm), is that safe? Um... yah? You could walk around there at midnight - still safe.

So now, when there is a murder in Canada - to be honest - we go big - or we go home.

Exhibit A: This guy in Edmonton wants to kill his common-law wife. He decides to BLOW THE HOUSE UP. So he sets up the bomb to go off but, he doesn't make it out of the house in time. So he kills himself, his wife, and three innocent neighbours. Totally blew up the house - actually creating a crater, and damaging 15 houses around him.

Exhibit B: Robert Pickton. This is our Canadian serial killer / pig farmer. He confessed to killing 49 women, and was very disappointed he got caught because he wanted to kill 50. The next part I am going to copy and paste because I don't want to type it out - its that bad.

Here--> "On March 10, 2004, it was revealed that human flesh may have been ground up and mixed with pork from the farm. This pork was never distributed commercially, but was handed out to friends and visitors of the farm. Another claim made is that he fed the bodies directly to his pigs" If you need to know more, click the Exhibit link (on any story).

Exhibit C: Kimberly Proctor. She was a young high school student who was going to a party and was beaten, raped, stabbed, and burned. She was actually burned so bad that police didn't know it was a human.

Exhibit D: Reena Virk. I'm actually reading the book Under the Bridge right now that is based on her life and death - Reese Witherspoon is also producing a movie on the book. So this girl was kind of an outcast. Went to a party - there she was ganged up on by 7 girls and a boy who beat her under the bridge (literally about a 5 minute drive from my home). She was able to walk away - but a couple of them followed her - one of them was Kelly Ellard - she was one sick puppy. She still shows zero remorse for what she has done. Anyway, they followed her, beat her some more - dragged her back under the bridge and drown her.

Exhibit E: And finally - Vincent Li. This guy was on the Greyhound bus with a boy named Tim McLean. Li here's voices that McLean is evil - so he switches seats and sits next to McLean. He then took out a "rambo type knife" and stabbed him repeatedly. Everyone ran out of the bus and locked Li and McLean inside.Li then cut up McLean and ate some of him.

I'm sorry for this gruesome post. I just think it's so crazy.

Blossom

Oh, young girls today. Blossoming from little buds and growing in to beautiful lush flowers. Transitioning through that rite of passage with grace and confidence.

Uh... wearing an uncomfortably short dress (especially for a LITTLE GIRL!) and having your tampon string hanging out? Um.... Awkward....

This was Taylor Momsen when Gossip Girl first started. I only watched season 1 of Gossip Girl because that was the only season that had any kind of remotely good story line. But I digress...

So, she started out so cute. So adorable. Girl next door, blonde, fresh faced - so cute!

Then she kind of styled her hair a bit differently, showed a little bit more skin, and discovered eye liner. Still - pretty darn cute!

Then, she REALLY fell in love with eyeliner. Like, obsessive, dirty, inappropriate love. The kind of love that should not be flaunted in the public. You know what else shouldn't be flaunted in the public?

A LITTLE GIRL wearing lingerie with stripper heals on with an actual slit for tips. OH... AND A TIP! Is that a $1.00 bill? She clearly doesn't think too highly of herself.

You know what else is odd for a little 17 year old girl? Um... how about TALKING ABOUT YOUR VIBRATOR and how it's your best friend? She also speaks of it here. And of course proving what a good role model she is HERE - you know, you're a role model if you want to be or not. And of course, her sensitivity and her down right Mother Theresa attitude about current events she displayed here. Oh Taylor Momsen - great role model for young girls. Next down this path of destruction? Could it be Miley Cyrus? She can't be tamed!

Friends...

Friends... Everyone has friends. Best friends, acquaintances, lovers, confidants, besties...

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I have this friend. She is... manic. She is never just... you know:

Me: Hi, how are you, whats new?

Her: Hi, good, not much...

She is always:

I HATE MY BOYFRIEND, I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND, I HATE MY JOB, I LOVE MY JOB, I'M HAVING THE BEST DAY, I'M HAVING THE WORST DAY.

So, the other day she emails me. She's having the worst day AND she hates her boyfriend. So she gives me this looooong story about how her boyfriend is a jerk, she hates him, she gives me a huge list of horrible stuff that he has done and ASKS FOR ADVICE.

Now normally I'm a listen, smile and nod kind of girl - but, if you ask for advice - I'll give it.

So, I start with my normal advice "what do YOU think you should do?"

She says "don't give me that crap - tell me what to do"

So I tell her. I say to talk to him. Tell him that you don't like when he does this. Offer some kind of solution and see what he says. She is gone for a while, comes back and says " I spoke to him, I apologized for thinking he did something wrong and begged him to forgive me"

um... what?

So I said, I thought he did this and this and this.

She said - he did, but I had no right to get mad, and I don't want to be alone.

I said ok, well, whatever you think is fine - just make sure you're being treated properly.

She Freaked - the F*ck - out!!!

She phoned me just to yell at me. How DARE I suggest he is not a great guy! How DARE I suggest their relationship isn't perfect. How DARE I suggest that there may be ANY KIND OF PROBLEM!!!

Whoa, like, what did I do?

She told me her issue

I gave, what I thought, was a good and fair solution.

I didn't want to give her advice in the first place?

Do you guys have friends like that?

Inception Review

My husband and I went and saw Inception a couple weeks ago. I wasn't really sure I wanted to see it. I didn't know what it was about and I, of course, couldn't find any information on it on the internet.

Without giving anything away, Inception is about the process of going into someone's dream and finding out their darkest secrets, stealing idea's or information. This process is called "extraction" The other side of this is going into someone's dream and planting an idea. This is called "inception". So that is basically what this movie is about, planting the idea. Leonardo Dicaprio assembles a team to plant an idea into the dream of a man whose father just passed away - it involves how he should break up his fathers company.

The movie is really beautifully done. Some of the scenes are totally amazing. Most of the scenes actually, are amazing. Some crazy things happen, things float, people float, and it ends with a little mystery.

One of the main stars is Leonardo. Yum. He has been making very good movies lately. This movie, The Departed, Blood Diamond - he has really come a long way from Growing Pains. I actually think he is a really great actor now - I wasn't a super huge fan before. He is really grown up and mature, and of course, not terrible to look at. He does a really awesome job in this movie. Really. Awesome.

Next is Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Yes, the kid from 3rd Rock from the Sun. Of course, he has done a lot since then, but that is what a lot of people know him from. He is a good little actor, and totally adorable. I would have to say he is one of my top five celebrity crushes. He would be on my "list". My laminated list even. Love him.

Of course, Marion Cotillard. I love her! She would be on my laminated list as well. She is definitely a girl crush for me. The first thing I ever saw her in was Nine, and I totally loved her then. She cannot get any better, and is awesome in this movie.

In general, this movie is awesome. I think everyone should see it! The movie is long, but it moves along quickly. You don't even realize how long it actually is. It keeps you interested the entire time, and the storyline and plot is amazing. Really, really you HAVE to see it! I highly recommend it!!