I am a coward.
I am.
A huge - freakin' coward...
So, I wrote HERE about a fight I had with a co-worker. Well... not a fight- more of a verbal attack. I hardly slept at ALL on Monday night. Upset by the way I was treated - replaying in my mind what happened and how I would handle work on Tuesday.
I was ready
I had the entire conversation in my mind. How she would try to be nice to me, and how I would tell her she crossed the line. She was beyond rude and condescending. Yes, I am an easy going person and I let a lot of things slide - but she went beyond what was forgivable.
I. Was. Ready.
She came in...
HER: Morning
ME: Morning (she's still a co-worker, I won't flat out ignore her)
HER: I am so incredibly sorry for what happened yesterday. I crossed the line, I was beyond obnoxious, no one should ever be treated that way, and I am sorry!
ME: Obnoxious is a good word. I used condescending when I told everyone what you did
HER: Obnoxious, condescending. I would use both those terms, and I am very sorry. I was stressed should have never taken that out on you.
ME: (this is where the coward comes out) It's ok dude
We hug
HER: I really am sorry
ME: It's cool, don't worry about it
Man... What is WITH me? I just forgave her - acted like nothing happened. It was over - my speech flew out the window.
coward.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
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You sound a lot like me. :)I have these GREAT comebacks and conversations in my head where I stand up for myself and I totally put that person in their place. But it never comes out the way I rehearsed it for some reason. It's probably best to just let it go and move on. You have more important things to worry about!
ReplyDeleteDon't feel bad I would have done the same thing. Seriously! I pick the best 'fighting' words you could think of in my head but when it comes down to it I don't like confrontations so I never say what I thought up. The world needs nice girls anyhow right?
ReplyDeleteI am confrontational in my head only; I would love to tell people how I really feel but when it comes time to do so, I don't. I know how you feel -- having a coworker disrespect you really sucks!
ReplyDeleteThat is the way you are supposed to be! She tried to make recompense and said she was sorry. Then you took the next step and said you forgave her. Imagine if all the world acted that way...there would be no fighting, no wars...just peace. Something like the lamb laying down with the lion. It would definitely be heaven.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, harboring ill feelings takes waaaay too much energy and it gives away your power. Be thankful that you have the capacity to forgive!